As a mother and maker of performance I have been in a state of flux since November. Although this is only a short time ago as a performer this feels like years ago. Right now live performance constructed on a stage involving lots of time spent in a studio and crafting something well feels very hard to imagine as a mother. My two year old son is so amazing and developing so quickly. As am I; a mother in the making. Gaining strength and struggling in equal measure as we navigate our way through this complex relationship together.
SO WHAT NOW? Creating performance work on stage will not work, feels morally wrong, could be fun, is too tiering.
PLAN? Make work that captures motherhood in a natural environment. Studio space- rehearsal time- is all SO UNREALISTIC, My son is TWO and a bit and I AM VERY TIERED but also loving being a mumma! Its a taken two years to finally feel like I can say that out loud!
So my plan is to make video blog/performances and keep writing as a way to document and play with the idea of capturing motherhood and our developing relationship. To show the hard work that mothers/parents go through in their domestic lives. To re veal the boring bits and see if they can become magical! and used as a starting point for something more...
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